Homo Sapien Sapien Sapien

I am a primate

I am a tall upright

Homo Sapien Sapien

It does not matter the color of my skin

My eyes are not my only

Receptacle for learning

I have ears to listen

Skin to feel

Air to breathe in and

A nose to smell

A mouth and tongue that tastes

And teeth and nails to draw blood

I have opposable thumbs

I have facial hair

And hair on my buttocks

I learn from stones

I can even write my thoughts

If I am lucky

I am grateful to be a person.

There are things

That all we people do:

We follow,

We copy and imitate,

And unfortunately

We back stab.

These are the three hard lessons

I learned as a youth.

I understand the follow thing,

It is the essence of social media.

And copying,

We all try something on

Before we make it our very own,

Good teaching helps us learn

To create from our own pure

And original selves,

To think for ourselves.

But we have to start somewhere

“If I am never a beginner

How am I ever going to begin?”

     - Miranda Lee Richards

The back stab

Is harder to understand.

For me, it was a hard lesson

That I am still learning.

Perhaps this is because

If we do not have a tribe

We do not understand what it is

To respect the “rules” of that club

So we get bullied

We lack proper respect from

What could be our tribe

And we are loners

I guess for people like me

We learn to throw ourselves

Under the bus

So as to avoid the risk of

Doing this to someone else

So what of this “back stabbing”?

This is the definition from Google:

“The action or practice of criticizing someone

In a treacherous manner

While feigning friendship.”

Being accused of this feels like betrayal

When you are trying to be an honest person.

Perhaps accusing someone of this

Is a form a gaslighting.

Following and copying were also deemed treachery

Though they are literally the fabric of society

As we know it.

Accusing someone of backstabbing

Could literally be the definition of it…

The said girl, was accusing me of feigning friendship

And in some ways I do believe I had hurt them

But I am a special kind of monkey

I am not trying to say that

I am terminally unique

But I AM gifted

I am disabled

I am mentally ill

I am different

So essentially

In my youth when my fellow primates

Accused me of following, copying,

And God forbid even backstabbing

It was a lesson for me

Because I needed to understand

The rest of my species

It is not always easy being gifted

Whether you are blind, deaf, dumb,

Whether you are autistic, ADHD, or have a speech impediment,

Whether you are bipolar, schizophrenic,

Abused, addicted, or just plain discriminated against

Do to your sexuality, the color of your skin,

Or your social economic standing,

You do not need to accept abuse from your peers

They are simply playing a different game

And belong to a different club

When you feel kicked out by a fellow homo sapien sapien,

Try and turn the other cheek

Try to remember that you may not actually belong

But it is still okay

You are okay

You are special

I am so sick of this

I am so sick of being a Homo Sapien Sapien

I want this planet to evolve

I want to evolve

I want to grow up, and choose, and vote

And pursue my right to happiness

I don’t want to be trapped on a small island

Or in a small city

Worrying about getting kicked out of a club

I kicked myself out long long ago

To teach myself a very hard lesson:

That it is okay to be different.